Wow!

I could actually write wow a number of times and probably still not be able to describe how impressed I am.

I fasted for a month for a team leader of our MST.  I had this ambiguous person in mind  with all of my perfect characteristics added in...And when someone answered the call I was a bit disappointed.  It was disappointment about me, and not about them, or God's call.

I had ideas about what I thought should happen, and what I wanted this person to be.

Last night though I was blown away.

Eric Hackman after much prayer, and talk with us agreed to be our team leader.

I have to say I am honestly embarrassed about my reluctance and judgment.  Everything about going to Belize has been a learning experience for me.

Eric was everything I prayed for and honestly went above and beyond.  I am so thankful for what God decided to do.

Please join us in praying:

for Eric and the rest of our hard working MST
for us in our journey at home preparing
and as we share our vision with others
for our children in this transition
for our finances

Thanks!!!
Spring

I give up

Okay okay I admit it. I've been feeling discouraged.

Life seems big and unmanageable right now.

People have failed my expectations

I have failed my expectations

there is so much to do: with missions, with life, with ministry. Sometimes I feel like it's unending.

Today after feeling very disappointed, I was thinking I give up!  Really this isn't what "i signed up for"

then I realized: I HAD signed up for this. I have been asking God to do above my (our) abilities then try to fulfill them on my own.  How silly!

So today I give up.

20 Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, 21to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen. Eph 3:20-21

up at 4am..now it's 7..

Well I prayed last night that God would wake me up. I struggle with getting up in the morning esp when I don't have to go to work. I guess I should have prayed more specifically. I woke up at 4 and couldn't get back to sleep.

Well I realize God is not Santa.  And the fact of the matter is he does answer our prayers.

I am thankful.

This my song for today:

Spring

The importance of Bike tires

Nathanael helped me last week. He said my bike tires were really low. He repaired my tire, actually put a new one on.

My ride to work was much easier than the past few weeks. A tire. That is what the hard work was for. One leaky tire.

On my ride I was really thinking about this. When we keep up the "work" in our own lives: daily prayer and reading the Bible, fellowship with God, the trials come easier.  Otherwise we are working harder for that "tire" Everything is more work, for that one simple tire.

Recently I've felt the call to pray. I have realized that this is of utmost importance, not an afterthought, not a "God please bless this mess I've made"