Much has already been said about us moving and the dates of moving. Today I am addressing my emotions and the actual move. Stick with me or move on (pun intended).
To be honest we knew that the move to Spanish Lookout had much to do with what was vital for our emotional health: be in a community with more support. Leaving Orange Walk after 5 years was very difficult, some of this transition happened while we were in the US.
Recently we had visitors. The person, unfamiliar to our journey asked when we moved. I had to explain we moved into our current house on September 15. That however preceded a move across countries in July which preceded a quick leave in June of 2021 where things were simply stuffed into a trailer. All of that to say this move has been drawn out and difficult. We finally feel as though we are at the end of a long period of multiple transitions.
This past year and a half was probably double what any of my transitions have been in the past. I felt like I spent too much time not giving myself the space and grace to take in the change. In all of this, I am finally beginning to have a place of feeling "home" when we pull up. It is gracious and wonderful. We are still finding our feet as we take up new ministry and continue with the "old'.
One thing that has hit me from the enemy is a feeling of failure. We moved as a family because of our emotional needs. Did we abandon those who also need a touch of Jesus? Nathanael was one to give me a huge perspective. He reminded me that moving and having a ministry "come to it's own" is an accomplishment. It is also a process of entrusting. I am NOT the savior of Jesus Deaf Church. (Neither is Nathanael) Jesus is. I need to trust that He has the best in mind: for our family, for our greater Deaf family in Orange Walk, and for our new brothers and sisters in Spanish Lookout.
While we are still in the same country, about a 2.5 hour drive from Orange Walk, we are in a totally different culture. People even speak a different language at times. There are spaces of feeling like we "should" know what to do but we just don't. It's humbling! We live directly behind Fountain of Life church. Yes we are again blessed to have church literally outside of our door! We are surrounded by farmland, cows new smells and sounds. Who would have imagined being able to hear howler monkeys from their porch? We are ever impressed by the green parrots that make Spanish Lookout home. My favorite thing is to have less light pollution. We can see so many stars at night!!!
While we are unpacked, I still have some organizing to do. I hope to do a short "tour" of our home by February. Be look on the lookout on Facebook!
Thank you for following us on this journey.